Life

It's been awhile since I've posted anything. There's been a lot going on and not all of it positive so I haven't wanted to bring everyone down. I'll give a quick rundown and will most likely leave with a warning that it might be a bit before I post again. It's better to not say anything that to say what's in my head.


So last weekend we had absolutely GORGEOUS weather for Light the Night. We were very blessed to have an ad placed in the The Shopping News AND to have the Minnehahah Messenger come out during the event to interview us. If I understood it right, an article about the Sanctuary will be coming out soon. So we are very fortunate and blessed to have that opportunity to not only promote Light the Night but to also share in our cause.


We had beautiful weather for the event. And looking at the forecast for later this week (and after this past weekend) it was perfect timing. Sure we had a little bit of mud but it was gorgeous. In the end we had just under a dozen people stop out for the Luminary Walk. It was more than I had anticipated for having not really marketed it. In fact, I almost thought about pulling the plug on it. My heart just isnt' really into it right now.


I'm actually starting to think that I want to dissolve the Sanctuary again. It would simply be easier. I don't have time to promote the Sanctuary, search for grants, and figure out where the money is coming.  But partly I'm just too stressed out about other stuff to even pay much attention except to the horses who bring me solace.


It's been about a month or so that we found out some news and I'm struggling with understand the whys and hows of it all. It's all wrapped up with family stuff and I'm struggling. So my attention needs to be on family rather than promoting the Sanctuary.


It always feels like whenever I start getting some forward progress, something else stops me in my tracks. I'm getting tired of it. But I'm to the point where I need help with the online stuff. It's not the stuff anyone wants to volunteer for but that's where I need the help.


They are now saying that there's a storm coming for the end of the week. I wish there was nice weather so we could be outside. We are currently on day 6 of quarantine of the coronavirus. Not really quarantined but we are home with the kids, which also means no time to sit and think about how to move forward or to even do more than basic chores. It's nice to be home but I'm still having to work but juggle entertaining the kids while everyone is home. So by the end of the day I'm exhausted from juggling so much. I had hoped to sneak away at the end of the week for a quick vacation but with being on "social distancing" for the next week, there's no need to sneak away and there's no place I want to go. And with our family situation, I don't want to be too far from home in case we are needed.


But with the upcoming storm, I worry for the horses so I guess it's a good thing I'll be home so I can sneak out and put horses in barns or put blankets on. Spring rains are always worse than mid winter storms. Winter storms the horses don't get wet and chilled from the rain first. But with the spring rains, the rains are always cold and they get chilled before the rain turns to snow. I need to finish putting the roof on the other lean to that the tornado ripped off. It's sadly been years sitting there waiting for me to replace it. It's now higher on my list to get done. I need to look for an enclosure for the mares as Jessie can't handle the weather as well. Their previous owner had a nice set up for them but sadly our setup isnt' as nice for the mares.


So there isnt' really a lot going on but there is. Sadly, I just can't seem to put words down on paper to say anything. I'm afraid if I say too much that I'll get too snarky. It's not that we don't have good things happening but I can't seem to see the silver lining in everything at the moment.


Hopefully we hear some good news with the family stuff that's going on and the stress will be lifted. But until then, we are headed for some rocky times and I'm going to struggle. In fact, I'm most positive that I'll be silent on here. If you want to see what's going on, check out Facebook but I expect I'll be quiet on there as well until I can figure out how to actually put a more positive vibe to any post. So if you need to reach me, leave a message on our Facebook page or send me a direct message at borderlandshorsesanctuary@yahoo.com. I promise I'll respond but it might not be immediate.