Behind

I've wanted to post a few times lately. We are busy and have a few things going on but I haven't had the energy to write anything. So now I'm behind on sharing all that we've been working on. Now that Facebook is the norm for sharing information, I am not as good about sharing all the news in the blog as well.


I'd been very stressed the last few months leading up to November, what with trying to figure out how to bring in the four horses from Canistota. I didn't realize how stressed until after we found a different place for Pepper to go and let Ransom go. I also didn't realize how upset and stressed I was about letting Lace go as well. Losing these seniors is much harder on me than I realize some times. I was worried that I was immune to their loss but I'm not. I know I compartmentalize some of it but when I look back, I realize how much stress there is and how distant I sometimes get afterwards.


Sadly, when someone finds out that we have lost a horse, people immediately think we have a spot open. But people don't realize is that I need time. The herd needs time. We all need time to recover from the loss and get used to a new routine. We have these horses here for a few years and fall into a routine pretty quick so when one finally passes on, it's hard to adjust. It's only been a month and everyone seems to have adjusted, although I think Mayhem is depressed to some degree. Only when Lace and Junior were in Madison was she alone and now that she's in with Jessie and Diavlo, she's not really included in their "group". Dialvo doesn't allow it but I can't have Diavlo in the big herd either because he'll stress himself out and lose too much weight and that will also cause Jessie to stress out and she's already at a dangerous weight. She can't afford to lose any more. So it's a day by day situation and we'll see how things progress.


It's already December 11th and I don't even have our family Christmas tree up yet! Usually I have all the decorations up long before now but there's been so much going on I'm struggling to keep up.


The stomach bug also ran through our entire house over the last few days. That's taken us down for the count. Sadly even with the stomach bug, it still means the horses and dogs have to be fed. So in between bouts of sickness, I slowly walked out to the ponies and fed/watered them. These are the days I wish we had more auto waters available. And these are also the days I wonder my sanity for running a horse sanctuary for old horses in South Dakota. Why not somewhere warmer?!


I have more to share on all that's been going on but will post again very soon.