Exhaustion

I’ve wanted to post for weeks but haven’t been able to muster the energy for some reason. Before kids, August was my burnout month. I’d go so hard during the summer and then mid August would hit and I’d be absolutely burned out and exhausted.

 

Now add kids to the mix (two of which were born in August), and my focus has switched to kids rather than horses and I’m still burned out. Of course, I was burned out in June too but that was at epic proportions of running errands I’d never had before so it was all new.

 

But I seem to be struggling more lately than in years past. I guess I’m just riding the pity train today (and possibly this week). I’m constantly having to tell people no when people ask and it really bothers me. But when I’m told no, I’m disappointed as well. I struggle with telling people no just as much as I struggle when I’m told no. I know I shouldn’t be disappointed and I should expect to be told no more often than not but it’s still hard.

 

I feel like I’m behind on everything. I’m behind on getting the Sanctuary out there. I’m behind on figuring out how to promote the Sanctuary but convince people that we need help both man power and donations. I can’t dedicate as much time as I used to so I need more help. Everything takes time. I realize we all have the same amount of time in our lives but I need help in juggling my time.

 

Many of the rescues are run on volunteers and with volunteers who work full time jobs. I’m in the same boat. I work full time (and I have to adjust my schedule for my kids) so I’m gone 10 hours a day minimum. I’m going to see if I can change when I leave for work but we’ll see. But then add in all the kids’ extra curriculars and I’m gone at least two nights a week if not three and then the weekends are packed with kids’ activities or getting them out to experience the world. It’s difficult because I can’t dedicate as much time as I would like and I’m missing out on opportunities. But I guess that’s part of the job. I don’t want the kids to be disappointed me in when I tell them I can’t go play with them because I have to do Sanctuary work. Juggling the paying job, caring for kids, caring for horses, making sure the kids get to do what they want, and trying to figure out how to make ends meet (both for the Sanctuary and at home).

 

I guess today I’m just feeling overly stressed. It’s not the post I’d like to put up here but hopefully it explains why I haven’t been around. The world and internet are full of negative and I don’t want to add to it so instead I’ve been quiet. Hopefully now that school is starting, the summer running activities will settle down and I can focus more on the Sanctuary  (but I doubt it). So if you have a passion for helping, let me know. I need all the help I can get. Like doing finances, then please oh pretty please help! Like marketing, oh we need you too! Love working with horses! Come on over! We have some jobs for you.

 

I’m behind on posting a couple of huge thank yous so check out Facebook in the next week or so (hopefully when I have more than 2 minutes and I’m not exhausted). Hopefully the next blog post will be more uplifting and it wont take me another month to post. But we are here, running around like crazy keeping kids busy and me exhausted. The horses are happy and content, so all is good for them.