Stressing It

We had another storm roll through last night. That's two nights in a row where we've gotten some serious rain. I'm thankful for the rain. Even if we didn't get enough during the summer and it caused some chaos with finding enough hay, I'm glad we're getting the rain now to restore some of the pastures and hay fields. I just hope next year will be an easier year for hay (and less expensive).


We'll have to look for additional hay resources next year as well. I'd like to have more than one resource in my back pocket. I'm a worrier and I keep looking for more hay but we need to get this hay paid for first before I can look for more. I just hope what we have is enough. We have to put in hay tonight, and now that we are feeding hay (and will be until May), I'm not sure we have enough. I'm a worrier by nature but this is legitimate worry.


I haven't bothered checking the hay barn to see how bad the leaks are. I'm simply ignoring the fact because we'll be getting it reroofed (fingers crossed). But I should probably have gotten up there and thrown a tarp down to try and save at least the loft from leaking down into the bottom floor.


We are planning on working on the barn tonight. I'm not sure what we'll get accomplished. We only have about two hours of daylight and it depends on how soon we both get home from the paying job to tackle anything. It usually takes a good half an hour of just finding everything we need to even start. It would be nice to see some progress. Now that it's October, I'm unsure that anything more will get done before the cold sets in.


I realized that every August I panic about winter. It's a ritual now. Or maybe it's a habit. Either way I've realized that I've spent the last two months playing and August is the final month of summer and I need to buckle down. Other times I've been playing so hard I'm burned out. And now with birthdays thrown in, I struggle to find time to get anything but the bare necessities done.


And then September rolls in and I REALLY go into a tailspin panic because nothing got done in August that I was freaked out about and now we are into school and fall and all that jazz. I need to get better organized so that next year when August and September rear their ugly heads, I wont' be caught by surprise. It's not like I don't know it's coming and that all this stuff needs to get done. I need a planner and an organizer. Any takers?


I'm hoping the weather holds so we can get a few things done tonight and then this weekend we'll have one day to get  more stuff done. I just hope we can really buckle down and get stuff done. It would be nice to see progress on the outbuildings. I'm starting to give up hope that I'll have time to finish painting the west side of the barn and I'll be left with the redneck view (bottom painted and top still needing to be scraped and painted).


Ah, this is the life of a Sanctuary momma with small kids working a full time paying job on the side.