Speaking Nonsense

Just a heads up....this post doesn't make any sense. It didn't go where I thought it would. It's mostly me complaining so just ignore it and wait for something better and more entertaining to read. :-)
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I was watching an episode of Heartland (yes I'm a Heartland addict), and they touched on something that has been on my mind before. This has nothing to do with the tragedies of late but rather in general.


Why do people become so wrapped up in worries over things that they have no control over, or worries over petty things when real worries such as life and death are at stake?  I seem to be struggling to put my thoughts into words.


I had the same thought last year while watching high dollar horses perform at a very prestigious horse show and yet on my laptop, I was reading and viewing pictures of horses standing in a kill pen waiting their turn to be loaded. What makes one horse more valuable over another? One of those fancy high-dollar horses could very well have been in that kill pen and a horse having been in the kill pen could very well end up in a very prestigious horse show. It's possible. But it's hard to take. All the glitz and glam of one with no regard for the blood, bruises, and beatings of the other.


I know I'm not making sense. I have been treading water lately but seem to be sinking below the surface. Every once in a while I will get a surge and get one big breath of air and then sink back down below the water. I'm not sure how to keep moving forward.


Everything will be fine soon. It's just that my life is in a state of upheaval. Remodeling a house (and negotiating with people to get the work done when you can't do it yourself), getting the horses out on grass (it's MID JUNE and they STILL aren't on grass!), tackling all the summer tasks that need to get done before winter arrives (yes I'm already thinking winter), etc. Its' never ending. I know, create a list and start on it.


But I could really use some encouragement. I've gotten so far behind, I haven't even posted any Wishlist Wednesdays. My wishlist never ceases; it just keeps getting bigger but I can't seem to find the time to sit and get that done.


I am hoping that after this month, I'll be able to breath a little easier but that all depends on if the horses get out on pasture, how much rain we get, if I can get any funds together to pay for hay (for last year), see where the remodel job is, and start working on fixing all the stuff that keeps breaking.


So I know this post went a totally different turn (they usually do), but I guess I just wanted to let you all know that we are here and I'm just a bit too off these days to post much. Hopefully I'll be able to get into the swing of things again shortly and stop posting weird and rambling posts.