Ranting

So, apparently I need to do a little bit of ranting. If you are easily offended, please move on to the next blog post because I'm not entirely sure how level-headed and politically correct I can be.


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I recognize that I am fairly gullible and trustworthy when it comes to people. I try to see the good in everyone and am totally caught off guard when I'm taken advantage of. Actions speak louder than words.

I cannot figure out why I am held to a higher standard than everyone else. If I say one word wrong, I am accused of being inappropriate. If I make one wrong move, I am accused of being inappropriate. I've been accused of having my priorities in the wrong order (and yes, I was accused of putting my family and the needs of my family and horses ahead of other activities, which was wrong in those people's eyes). Yet, when I see others doing the same thing and call them out, I am once again the bad guy.

What I don't understand is that we are all in it for the same overall reason. We all have separate goals and such, but in the end, we all have the same overarching goal...the well-being of our horses.

I guess I'm grouchy because of pregnancy and because I realized last week, that my gullible-ness was taken advantage of and I was played, not just once but twice. Twice I've had people use my good intentions and my willingness to help, only to be tossed aside like a piece of twine. It aggravates me and makes me leery of wanting to help.

I am sure that most of what I'm dealing with are pregnancy hormones, but to come to the realization that I was played twice has really set me on edge. I'm sure that in the eyes of the people who overstepped on my good graces don't even realize what they've done, nor see anything wrong with what they've done.

I am simply struggling with my faith in humanity at the moment.