Goodbye Queen and Thor

Today we lost Queen and Thor. It's so hard saying goodbye but sometimes doing the right thing is hard. I will always be dumbfounded on those who decide to sell at an auction or let stand in a pasture instead of doing the right thing.

We had Queen for five years. I remember the day we brought her home. I will cherish those memories of her being here. But what do I do now? I lost the horse that I turn to when I'm upset. I lost the horse that tries to console me. She was always the "grandma or mom" type. Someone who would try to make things better even if it was just a touch. I will miss her more than I realize.

We had Thor for two years and was always the protector. Even in death, Thor was a protector. When we lost Joe two years ago, I put Thor in with Babe and Queen in hopes that Thor would protect Babe. Instead Thor decided to protect Queen. I put Queen in with Babe and Thor this past week. I think Thor was the happiest he's been to have his Queen back.

Queen and Thor went swiftly. In typical Thor fashion, Thor had to protect Queen until his last breath. We laid him down and he rested his head on Queen's hooves. Always the protector, even in death.

I will miss those two. My thoughts must now focus on Babe. She is alone in the blind pen. I am thinking I'll move Bo over so that she's not alone. That way I can grain both of them without worry of someone else snitching from their dishes. Babe is now the oldest horse at Borderlands, at the age of 30.

It has been a long and emotionally exhausting day. Sanctuary life never gets easier nor will I ever numb to the loss of a family member. But I wouldn't trade my life for anything. I'd rather my heart were scattered into ten thousand pieces than to have a whole heart. Because those ten thousand pieces would be going with each soul I ever touched.

I'll be looking for a sign in the sky these next couple of nights to know you made it to where you are going. May we meet again some day.